day14: the confidence to go after I want.

I have been the type of person that if I really put my mind to it I can get something done.  I know I have the power to overcome the difficult times and to be persistent and get closer to my goal.  But on the other hand, I have certain insecurities that make me question myself.  Am I good enough? Can I really do it?  Then again...there are days...I don't care.  So what does that make me?  Not sure.  

But what I do know

• I have a wonderful family that I would do anything for to protect them and to make them happy.
• I have a roof over my head and I don't have to worry about being with out food.
• We are giving our children everything they need to be happy and independent.
• I can do anything I put my mind to it.
• Persistence is key.

Okay..I am a strong person and I can do it!

Day 13:hearing the laughter of my kids.

There is something about hearing children laugh.  The sound of pure joy and happiness.  They say that laughing makes you happy. Laughing is contagious. I believe it too.

I was sitting around working on the computer and the kids were playing on the other computer in the "call Center" and one of the kids start laughing...then the other...then the other.  So before you know it the room is filled with the kids laughter.  Usually it is something as simple as a smiley face on the computer screen. But the joy to hear my children laugh. It makes me remember what it is all about.  My family and my children.

Sometimes it is good to just sit back and enjoy the NOW.  I am enjoying the NOW....the laughter of my kids.

Day 12:my computer...

Okay.. I know...kinda materialistic. But I use the computer all the time to get information to and from people.  The kids have their own sites they visit on the computer as well.  We have a room that we named "the call center."  This is one room where most of the computers are set up.  We can all go and work on the computers and be together.

The computer has allowed me to work from home.  It makes my life easier.  I use my computer everyday almost all day. How about you?

Day 11:opportunities

Today I am thankful for the opportunities that we have been able to give our children.  Last night we watched the Wizard Of Oz with the Utah Symphony playing the musical score along with the movie.  Wow...for the first time seeing Oz with live music.  And the icing on the cake was the conductor proposed to his girlfriend after intermission. It was a very creative way of proposing.  So thankful for this wonderful opportunity.

Day 10: My parents

I am so thankful for my parents...they are the ones that raised me and supported me 100%.  I can not express the gratitude I have for all the sacrifices you made to make a wonderful life for me and Jubs.  We were lucky growing up.  We were able to have the love and experiences that most people did not have. I thank you.  For making do with having to work out of town for the week and being home on the weekends. For mom having to raise us like a single parent because dad had to work in the bigger city.  The sacrifices.  We didn't think anything of it, because we knew we were loved and being taken care of. 

Thank you for not killing me in High school..or even college.  I know I ended up being the wild one but calmed down after a while.  Thank you for not comparing the two of us. Jubs was always better in school and musically and other things. Thank you for helping me out when I started to have kids.  I would have never been able to do it with out your help. And Dad thanks for letting mom come up for so long to help out....I know she had to come up almost every year for 5 years. Thank you!

Thank you for not judging me for my poor choice in boyfriends. Thank you for accepting Robert into the family.  Thank you for all your love and support.

Day 9: not being sick

Today everyone was home sick!  Great...not a good time to be sick...but it started with Drew on Friday. Saturday he was fine.  Sunday runs for Drew and Baby strated getting sick right after her nap.  That lasted till 3 in the morning with baby...then at 4 when I was trying to get to bed Sammie started getting sick.  Baby woke up fine and I think is done...Sammie has it the worst...she has a fever and is dizzy.  Robert came back and was not feeling good.  Great!  I can not get sick right now.  So I will try and stay strong and not get sick.  So I am thankful for not being sick.

Day 8: The ability to stay home with the kids.

I am thankful for the ability to stay home with the kids for days like today.